how to be free?

H-15.

Yeah, final test in this semester will arrived. 

That’s kinda frustrating.

I just finished my midtest about 1 week ago.

Too much to do,

Too much to tasks,

And too less time.

You know, it’s killing me inside. Yeah, plus the distance between my house and my school is about 50 km. Cruel, isn’t it?

I’m too tiny, too fragile, too exhausted, to face this.

Well yeah, it’s me and my self.

But My Papa said “This all is your choice, you have to this.”

You know, when I heard that, somewhat I get angry. 

Why not? I’m in acceleration program in my school beacuse my papa wants that.

And because of that program, my parents forbid me to join student council. 

“You have to focus with your program, is that clear?”. 

Yeah it still remember my papa said that.

And so, I’m not free anymore in my extracurricular, “Broadcasting Club”. 

Just because I’m in 3rd semester, I can’t do whatever I want.  

Broadcasting is a club where we have to give all of our time as much as we could.

But lately, I’m not allowed to spend my time after school in the school.

I have to directly go home. 

I really want to scream, sometimes I want to cry.

Is this what my papa really want? 

I want to him to see that I’m not happy with this. 

I want to be free. 

I want do whatever I want.

I want to get out from this situations. 

Somewhat I feel this world is cruel to me.

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All the things you wish for might not become stars
But if you have a dream you believe in
There will be thousands of the brightest shining jewels in the night sky

Nanairo no compass - Miyano Mamoru

-Sie.