Shan's Journal... 🖉

Have you ever feel like frustrated? Frustrated with your school-life. Frustrated with your house-life. Frustrated with your love-life.  every particular things in your life. Yeah, I can’t write about love-life it. Why? I just can’t. I’m already give up on that. I’m afraid to fall again. I don’t wanna make a conversation with any boy. Boys are like something I don’t want to know. Gorgeous but dangerous. Fantastic but pathetic. Adorable but miserable. I mean, they can change your life. Change your way of thinking only with their smiles, only with they send you sweet messages every night. So, I have decided to block everything about creatures called boys. Go back to the topic about frustrated. I write this post, because I’m frustrated right now last night. You know? I’m attend an accelerated program in my school. And that makes me to try harder to graduated with good(great. -My dad) mark. Only in two years. Could you imagine that? I got much much p...

whoa. what have I done today? whoa. I couldn't remember. wait, today was the first day of my final exam in this semester. and the schedule for today was chemistry. yeah. FYI. I'm really bad at chemistry . I didn't know why, every time I tried to learn it, somewhat It wouldn't understood by me. haha. forget it. So...? Well that's kinda absurd. I'm just somewhat frustrated with my final test. Chemistry is so so unpredictable. I mean, It's mean. You know, mean. Yeah, really mean. (link source : link ) "And now I try hard to make it I just wanna make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you Can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me . . I'm sorry I can't be perfect" -Simple Plan - Perfect- -Sie.

Puisi kali ini dibuat saat UH Matematika.  Hampir satu jam waktu ulangan pun diisi dengan berceletuk hal-hal aneh daan menulis semi-puisi yang abstrak seperti ini. Happy reading, hape you’ll like it :) Hebat. Sangat hebat Baru kali ini hal seperti ini terjadi 10 tahun lebih aku melekat dengannya Aku selalu antusias menghadapinya Tapi mengapa tidak kali ini? Rasanya ingin kusudahi saja semua ini Maaflah aku tak maksmimalkan usaha Tak sangka pula sampai di titik nadir semacam ini Padahal sedari dulu ku pertahankan mu Kau-lah satu semangat keseharianku Keindahanmu selalu ku jaga Maaf kali ini aku benar-benar gagal Bahkan tanpa mencoba sedikit pun Aku tau Aku egois Tapi maaf Sungguh Aku berada di titik lelah sekarang Kali ini hasilnya pasti tidak akan sama Tidak sama dengan jumlah planet dahulu Mungkin beberapa planet akan hilang Mungkin hanya akan tersisa planet inferior Yah, Matematika.. Maaflah aku Kali ini pasti akan menge...