love is blind

Love is blind, and lovers cannot see the pretty follies that themselves commit. 

(The Merchant of Venice)

So, this post may called as Quote of the day #2 . Not about resume of “The Merchant Of Venice” or  “Two Gentleman of Verona”. This post is about...

cin. ta. iya, a.i. lo.ve. 

haha anak kecil kaya aku ngomongin cinta apa jadinya. jelas ngga, ngaco iya.

(Naomi, 2014)

Ano ettoo..

I’ve said that , I can’t write about love-life it.

Why? I just can’t. I’m already give up on that. I’m afraid to fall again.

And I’ve said that, Houtarou Oreki is much much better than any guy I’ve ever met.

But still,

I’m a normal girl.

I can, I could fall-in-love. With not just an anime character a normal person.

Maybe it just me too afraid. I was too naive back then. And broken-hearted makes me feel so weak. I don’t want to be like that anymore. So, I have decided to block everything about creatures called boys.

But one day, someone told me that I couldn’t live like this anymore. My life is mine. And It couldn’t control me. Maybe he don’t know about what happened to me. But still... He’s right. I have to face my deepest fear.

Back to the time when I was an open door.

Hopefully this time I could survive.

If God told me to live, I live.

If God told me to die, I die.

If God told me to survive by throwing me into this beautiful cruel world, then it means I have passed His test before.

If God told me to live, I live.

If God told me to die, I die.

If God told me to survive, I’ll cling into anything, anyone, to do His command, His wish, His hope.

(Agi, 2014)

After all, this post is just a part of brand new me. 

I’m trying to be more possitive now.

But still, I don’t  want to do stupid things anymore.

Because love is blind, and lovers cannot see the pretty follies they themselves commit.

Is this post mean I'm falling now? Well, It's up to Him.

-Sie.